Monday, March 16, 2009

I'm Only 3.5 Years Old

I believe now that (and this is debatable) a person who chooses to not pray (even for 1 prayer) is not a muslim anymore. I also believe that whoever stops being a muslim, all his past good deeds become void and useless. Ya3ne bel3arabi esaffer il3addad.

And I only started praying regularly and on time for the past 3.5 years. And I thank Allah profusely for that, and ask Allah fervently that I never leave it ever again, til the day I die.

So I'm only 3.5 years old.

Also, tonight, I sat in a cafe' across a long time friend of mine, who used to be quite religious and is extremely well-educated intellectual. He called me up yesterday that he wanted to sit with me to "talk".. and that he had a... "crisis of faith"... that's how he said it over the phone. And from that phone call until a few hours ago my mind was so worried about what he meant. We rarely go out to talk. almost never. never one on one atleast. So all through last night I was worried if he was serious or only joking. Shino qasda crisis of faith?? those aren't light words at all.

And tonight in the cafe' he tells me that he agrees that there's only one God and that God exists.. but he's wondering how can he be sure that Islam is the correct religion.. is the Qur'an really the word of Allah, and that possibly it was made up by Mohammad (pbuh)...

I won't attempt to say everything he said to me.. or everything I replied with.

I just tried to be as calm and methodical as I possibly could.. while hiding (or trying anyway) my shock and disbelief at the words coming out of his mouth.

We parted with me simply stressing to him that he asks guidance in this matter from Allah and that if he's really truthful in his plea, God will not lead him astray.

And as I dropped him home and drove off my face contorted fiercly with great fear and horror for what is "possible".. that such a previously religious person could openly utter such blasphemy. sej sej inna Allah yahdee man yashaa' wa yudhillu man yashaa'.

I was chocking up in the car just desperately asking God to save myself and save those who I loved the most from the fate of kufur.

I'm only 3.5 years old, I'm a baby basically. And I witnessed a grown man die infront of me as he spoke.. paid the bill then walked with me towards my car. a dead man. Sub7aan Allah.

2 comments:

brown-suger said...

wow, that is so shocking, yarab et,thabitna
lol i never looked at prayer from that angle before, :P i dont know how old i am. perhaps 6 or 7 years old, lol alla ethabit kil el nas, i hope ur friend will gain his faith back, just as quick as he lost it :(

ZoN said...

allah ythabitna, w yahdi iljemee3 enshallah :)